Feelings..
yesterday’s tvxq concert…i did not attend it…honestly..i’m very sad about it…i’m also deeply jealous of my friends…of those who can get the chance to go..very very deeply jealous…i feel so unlucky…aihx…
everytime junne,kar yen and pingqing talks bout it…i feel a stinging pain in my heart…i just feel sad…self pity…but i know i can’t show it..i dun wana spoil the excited feelings blasting out from them…i’d be a spoil brat if i do…
i just really really REALLY hope they passed the wretched scrapbook which we made..with all our hearts..Junsu!! pls read it!! *prays* i just really really…hope…eventhough i cant go to the concert..at least a piece of my heart and me is there..
JUNNE!!!YEN!!PINGQING!!! I DEMAND A FANCAM!!! lolz…nah..i dun think anyone fancam-ed junsu…dey rather fancam their faves…none of them like junsu..why? i dunno…
if you ask me why i like junsu…most probably it’s because of his charisma…i think i like guys with charisma..like in 5566, i like 仁甫cause he’s always so talkative and happy and full of charisma..yea..i think i’m attracted to that..
charisma…it’s something i think i lack…seeing someone so full of charisma..makes me wanna be with him/her…as a friend, as a fan, anything really…someone with charisma will complete me maybe? and…seeing that person who has so much charisma so sad..makes me sad too…maybe it’s like a piece of me is missing once again…it tears me apart…
it’s very..or quite hard to find someone with so much charisma nowadays…and if you ask me "what about your friends??" i’m sorry to say…they are not charismatic..they are just talkative and wild..and really someone who gives me headaches when they shout unneccasarily…or ignores what i’m saying…
i guess my dad is right…they ARE wild…yea…parents are always right…well..most of the times at least…i wished i didn’t get so close to them..junne,yen n pq i mean…kar yee and bx is alright…pui yan is a lil’ wild..well she is the one who always shouts unneccasarily…i hate it when she does that..it makes her sooo immatured…
che said…a true friend is very hard to find…someone who goes through thick and thin together..like the ones you see in movies..people think those friends who they are close to are true friends…but they sometimes get it wrong….like me…some friends i think which i can keep is…kar yee..bao xin..though sometimes i hate her..but..she’s quite dependable when you’re in trouble..jia min..but she’s leaving already..
friends who i think is not advisable to keep..junne..pingqing..yen..i’m sorry to say this..but..it’s true..other than tvxq, sjam, there’s ntg much to talk bout..except dat junne always complains bout her sisters and bro…it sometimes interesting to listen but sometimes you just get fed up with it..because it’s like she’s doing all the talking and not letting you a chance to talk..she wants all the attention..etc..some goes to yen n pq…
and those 3 "friends" i think they give me more negative influence than positve…i should cut down as many negative influence as possible..i dun wanna turn out bad..or a sick emo goth girl…or..a whiny baby who whines and complains about everything..anything which got to hard to handle..
aihx…i’m sorry if you read this blog and feel very offended..but a blog is supposed to be an expression of someone’s deep feelings and thoughts..so everything i wrote is true…but i still consider everyone a friend..good friends..but not the best or the truest…just good enough to accompany me till my highschool days are over…
